LUCKY

I'm lucky! Yes, really, I am very lucky! No no nooo! I haven't won the Lottery, I do not have a car right now and an apartment of my own. I have only one room at my mom's that I share it with my son. But ... I am lucky. 

Why? I am lucky because I was born without problems and without birth defects, I had a childhood full of games and joy, because I went to school and I was able to learn many wonderful things, that other children want to learn but have no possibility. I am lucky because I'm smart and beautiful and I have a family that helped me develop as I am now.

I am lucky because I have friends who take me as I am and support me even when I'm bitter and they grabbed me when I was about to fall, not turning their backs on me.

I'm lucky I am able to offer pure and unconditional love and because I was and still am loved. 

I am grateful I am living in a country where is peace and that I have a place to stay. 

I am lucky because I can travel and see places absolutely beautiful. 

The miracles are often next to us but we have problems with the closer view - we see well only at a distance, when we approach the point that was on the horizon and it is closer we're not seeing well. 

I'm lucky I can dream and I can turn my dreams into reality. 

I 'm lucky because every day is special and every day I find a treasure (a new song, meet new people, discover new feelings in people that I already knew, I discover myself and I'm always new).

Lucky by Jason Mraz

Do you hear me?! I'm talking to you!
Across the water, across the deep blue ocean,
Under the open sky,
Oh my baby I'm trying.

Boy I hear you in my dreams,
I feel your whisper across the sea,
I keep you with me in my heart,
You make it easyer when life gets hard.

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend,
Lucky I have been where I have been,
Lucky to be comming home again... Ooh, ooh, ooh

They don't know how long it takes,
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say good-bye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend,
Lucky I have been where I have been,
Lucky to be comming home again.

Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be comming home some day

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair.

Through the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keep spinning 'round
You hold me right here, right now.

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend,
Lucky I have been where I have been,
Lucky to be comming home again.

Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be comming home some day.

WE ARE THE SAME IN OUR ESSENCE BUT DIFFERENT BY PARTICULARITIES

We are what we feel in our soul we truly are, though we allow others to tell us who and what we are. We accept so easily the characterization of people around us and we accept it with serenity. 

If you keep repeat to a child that is stupid finally that kid will end up stupid. We often come to be  criticized by people who know nothing about us, people that just do not like us. Similarly, in our turn, we criticize the people around us without knowing them, without knowing the circumstances in which they acted, why were they dressed in a certain way today, why are they eating with the left instead of right and examples would be many.

Why is so difficult for us to accept diversity?  How would the world be if we all have the same preferences? Or how would the world be in one color, and clothes made of a single model, so the shoes and all things around? Would we like a uniform world ? I bet not. 

And then, as we enjoy the variety we get at the market when we want to buy apples, we like Jonathan apples but wanting to taste the golden apples too, so we can rejoice that we are different as individuals and as preferences. 

I think the impediment comes from angle of the question. Instead we think "hmm, what taste does she or he has!" we could be glad that we have different tastes and we can share the experiences.

I've exercised this when I walked down the street. I saw a fat girl and the first impulse was "Poor her!She's so big!". Then I realized that I fall in the same trap. I corrected myself thinking "She is different and there is nothing wrong with being different." 

Market economy works best when the offer is diverse and there are more bidders so many tastes will be satisfied, as a rough example. 

Instead dealing with labeling and criticizing others we can do more for us developing our interior so that we can fill with love the gaps from which the evil is born. Voids generates frustration, and frustration causes evil. 

When the gaps and darkness inside of us will be filled with light and knowledge then we have evolved. When I am satisfied with myself that can be seen outside, I constantly send the message "I am happy! I am pleased with myself!" and then people not only that will not avoid me, they will search for my company. 

The best thing a human can do is to love himself, to spend some time with himself, to respect himself, to do the things that more pleases him and feels joy doing them, not searching for who is to blame for the wrong decisions. 

Most certainly we will not feel attracted by the flowers wilted or dried trees. When we feel alone we better wonder objective and detached "Am I a wilted flower or a dried tree? What can I do to revert to a beautiful flower?" Feed myself. Feed myself with healthy food both physically and spiritually. 

In essence we are created the same, only form and color is different, that does not  automatically degrade us. Our quality is given by how much we invest in ourselves. 

Let's be better starting NOW.

I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY

Yes! It's not a book title! There are my own words: I choose to be happy! Some might say: yeah...right... easy to say...but... . And there's always a "but". Of course you can always choose to postpone and there's always a condition. I was there. I know how it feels.
There was a time when I promised myself I will be pleased after high-school and after I will be admitted by the college I wanted to attend to. That didn’t happen right away so I was many years so unhappy. I also promised myself that I will be happy when I’ll find my soul mate and have my own family. Was I happy?! Of course, but only for a short time - a year or two – until we had the first argument, and after that the second. I was telling to myself: must be the money and when we’ll have no money shortage and our home we’ll be in peace and happy. That happened too and guess what?! It wasn’t enough! Nothing has changed. My peacefulness and happiness were far away because they had always depend on things from outside of me - variable things. 

Let's take it one at a time: I graduated the high-school and I've tried four times at the college without any success. Not only I wasn't happy, I was miserable because I wasn't doing it for me, I was doing it for my parents, for making them proud, to demonstrate I am somebody and I have a value. For failing that I felt such a loser. I found myself a job not to be a burden for my parents. My preparation for college exams were

pretty expensive and I couldn't stand the simple thought of not helping them. I was unhappy because I wanted more and more and more... I wanted to prove that I am somebody, I wanted to prove that I ain't nobody. I started to blame my parents for

failing and in the same time I was afraid to let them down. I've always considered they had set higher standards for me. They couldn't possibly understand me.

I wanted somebody to understand me, a "he" to live happily ever and after with, to cherish and to love me. No relationship worked out. I already had an opinion about relationships: all sucks. And men.... oooh! Men were incapable of loving. And guess what kind of men I found! Only this kind!

At a given moment appeared a man a little bit different from others and I made him responsible with my happiness. I was wrong this time too. 

Something was missing. I wasn't happy. I kept my sadness for myself, blaming myself for choosing wrong: "You chose! It's your fault, you deal with consequences! You have no right to cry!" 

Here I started to carry my cross. I was keeping deep inside of me each discontent, each reproach I was about to launch,  being afraid not to upset the man I was living with. And this was not enough because I was letting him to treat me bad and I wasn't fighting back because I thought I somehow deserve it. I suck it all like a sponge, but one day the sponge couldn't take no more and I said "Enough is enough!" and I fought back suddenly. 

I said to myself "I don't want to walk this path no more". My reaction was a surprise to all people close to me. They thought I was happy. They knew my mask, my mask of joy and funny jokes, and getting along with everybody.

I chose another way, another path, and I left the man I shared my life with for some time knowing that alone will be better.

It was more quiet and without fighting but I wasn't happy. I started to blame myself for my bad decisions and for all these lost in vain years. Instead of peace I was full of hate, more and more hate. And this wasn't the worse scenario because my attitude influenced my relationships everywhere.

I started to ask myself some questions: can a human being can be truly happy on this planet?! Is happiness an utopia? Is there love and happiness only in books and movies? Why in the world have I was brought to life? 

Inside of me was a huge tornado, a hurricane of thoughts and doubts. I was depressed, full of hate and feeling helpless. I had some panic attacks. I had no idea of who I am.

Then I met an angel in human body. Her name is Nico and she's a self help coach. She was so patient with me and showed me such much love and understanding and helped me find answers to my questions. 

I've learned to find the good part from each experience, even that we consider bad experiences. I started to be grateful that things had happened the way they had, and the big picture is I am who I am because of all of these experiences. 

Because of that I chose to be happy here and now, not tomorrow, not when I'll get my home back, not when I'll have a car, not when I'll have the driver's licence, not when I'll get a rise at work, not when I'll get rid of debts, not when I'll find my soul mate but HERE AND NOW!

I am happy for each morning I wake up. I look outside the window and I feel lucky I live in a world so complex, a world that can teach me so many extraordinary things. I am happy I have friends that care about me. I am happy I can go to work every day. I am lucky having a great team at work. I am happy I can do whatever I like, and I feel free. I enjoy every leaf, flower, cloud, rain drop, sunbeam, smile, tear. I stumble and then I rise again. I have no useless worries. I am not afraid of tomorrow anymore because this is the real life.

I am happy here and now because I can see, I can hear, I can smell, I can taste, I can feel, I can love and because I am loved.

LIFE IS A JOURNEY

I was recently conscious that the rhythm which we live our lives with it looks like a marathon competition. For passing the finish line you need practice and a strong will. 

But what is the matter after all? We run! We run and run and forget about the people we meet, forget the nature that surrounds us and loves us, we forget to enjoy as much the sunshine as the rain drops. 

I’m experiencing a great revelation: our life is like a journey. Who leaves home and sabotage his/her own vacation? 

I’ve been lost for too long, not-knowing what to believe and which road to choose, who to trust. 

As a traveler I stop and enjoy the fields filled with flowers, the shadow of the trees in the middle of the summer, the breathe of a cool wind, the songs of summer birds, a rain drop... 

I’m grateful for all these wonders of the world and I’m grateful for my life, for I can see,hear, taste, smell, feel. I am so happy for beginning my journey I feel to shout for the top of my lungs „I AM HAPPY, I AM ALIVE!”, I wish all could share this feeling with me. 

I’ve stopped running. Now I’m walking, experimenting, scouting new paths, give love... I am happy for the smallest flower, I am happy for hearing the voice of the Earth, I’m happy being me. 

What a wonderful journey! Extraordinary people cross paths with me!

I’m lucky and I’m on vacation: I CAN DO EVERYTHING!

Each time I feel like running I hear the alarm: „Hey! You’re in vacation! Enjoy! Learn something from it and always do things you love!”.